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I am at the point where I have finally joined staff, at the Cape Town
Foundation Org (means I worked from 7.00 pm to 10.30 pm, Monday to
Friday, and Saturdays and Sundays, from 9.00am to 6.00 pm, without
pay). I also had a day job, and found this to be a gruelling
schedule. During the day, I had a department to run at the University
of Cape Town, and was responsible for 30 staff members. I also had to
run the home (shopping, cooking, etc), and essentially I had no time
to myself.
THE TTC (Technical Training Corps):
There are various steps a new staff member has to go through when joining
and Org. You have to establish a production record, and you receive training
on being a staff member. It is called "indoctrination". Never did like that
word. I learnt about ethics, and about how in order to stay out of trouble,
it was best to be an "up-statistic" (every aspect of working in a Scn org is
measured by statistics). My natural inclination was to resist such rigid
control - I hated authoritarianism. BUT, I was there to save the planet, and
if this required submitting to an imposed discipline, I would do it.
I was given a program of training to becoming an auditor. My statistic was
"student points". (Points are allocated according to the amount of material
studied), and I was on full time training (7.30pm to 10.00pm). However, I
was assigned other tasks, and in order to complete them, I often had to stay
on till 11.00pm, sometimes midnight. Then up again, at 5.00 in the morning,
to do the work involved in running a home, before going to my day job.
TRAINING:
After I completed the preliminary steps, I was ready to begin training. I
had to do the "post-graduate" course of the Key to Life, the Life
Orientation course. The materials of this course are confidential, so I
won't go into it. I flew through the course, getting a lot of student
points and quickly established myself as an "up-statistic". I was
expected to be there at 7.00 pm, sharp, for "roll call" and muster.
If I was late, I was sent to Ethics. The fact that I had a
responsible day job did not constitute a valid excuse for being late,
nor did the fact that I had to make supper for my ex and I. Pressure!
Something had to take a back seat, and my day job suffered - I was
tired and distracted. Add to that, constant fights with my
ex - I started getting the "fixed stare" often attributed to Scientologists.
The next course I did was the PRO TRs (Professional Training Routines).
This teaches you to confront, and to resist responding to anything your pc
(preclear) may say to you in an auditing session. It teaches you not
to respond to anyone pushing your "buttons", to ask an auditing
question, to get it answered, and to acknowledge it. One of the drills
- TR0 - you have to sit for 2 hours and "confront" another person -
without twitching, moving, or excessive blinking. You definitely feel
stronger after getting through this - able to control things and
people. Horribly intoxicating.
Next, was the Upper Indoc TRs (Upper Indoctrination Training Routines). Here
you learn to get a person to follow your commands, despite any resistance on
their part. For example, you say: "Walk over to that wall. Thank you. Touch
that wall. Thank you. Turn around. Thank you. Walk over to that wall..."
etc., over and over again. You are trained to issue the commands with
Intention (called Tone 40), and if necessary, physical force. I did my
drills with a guy who was over 6 feet tall, and very well built - to get him
to follow my commands gave me a sense of "Power". Horrible.
The rigid schedule, the long hours, the discipline, wore down my ability to
analyse what was happening to me. I became irritated by normal life and
people, and LIVED for the time when I could go into the Org, impress
everyone with how good at it I was, my high student points, etc. The
indoctrination was starting to bite, I was starting to enjoy it to a point
that I would describe as a sick lust for that "power".
More to follow in Part 6.
Kim Baker
Kim Baker
Cape Town, South Africa E-Mail: Kim@uctlib.uct.ac.za
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"Thoughtcrime is a dreadful thing, old man. It's insiduous. It can get
hold of you without you even knowing it."
- From "Nineteen-eighty-four", George Orwell